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15 March 2006 @ 10:11 am
remix! remix!  
the fall of troy was worth it. i got to have irish jokes with scouser, & scouse jokes with kid irish. i also learned how not to mix my drinks; i swear i STILL feel drunk, i've not even had a hangover yet. whurr.

i saw cave in boy again today, as well as yesterday. there is progress! yesterday was a wave. today was another wave, & a conversation through facial expressions, which was basically just me shrugging & looking down the platform for my (late, AGAIN) train, & him laughing. & then he blew me a kiss. =) we have not yet spoken at all. god damn those train tracks! i still do not know his name. i think tomorrow i may ask him?
^ this is probably quite silly, in the long run.

i like somebody but i do not want it to be rebound. however it is going to be about 6 weeks until i am in their company again so maybe i will be over certain things by then. who knows? i cannot wait.
jack gave me a call on monday afternoon; it was completely normal, or, well, as normal as i know with him. we spoke exactly how we spoke before we got together. it was just.. normal. i would be lying if i said it didn't freak me out.

i lost my oyster card when stumbling home on monday night, & i actually cried, but not lots. in 3 months, i still haven't cried the big cry i have been urging for. my oyster card was in a plastic wallet that held all my old train tickets & little notelets & things. the tickets from mine & ritch's 'trenau arriva cymru' day, all the ones that took me from my house to jack's & back.
i hate bringing up his name but sometimes i have to.
i don't want to talk to him ever again but at the same time, i really want to be his good friend.
i can't stand the fact that i am still feeling like this, after over 2 months. i don't get it.

james craddock is a TOSSERY FOOL. <3345 SUPSUP, SEXY SCALLY.
vodka shots, hellogoodbye, & srsly sad songs. all in one phone call. i spent last night alone but not so alone at all. =)






sometimes, i wish i knew what the hell i was thinking.
 
 
 
It's not so hard to say you're all right.boysdontcry___ on March 15th, 2006 09:14 pm (UTC)
get in there with train boy plz.
theonlygremlintheonlygremlin on March 21st, 2006 08:02 pm (UTC)
YOU'RE WONDERFUL!